My depression is getting worse, it’s keeping me up at night, being up till 5 am has become a routine. Sadly, so has staying in bed till the late afternoon. I wanted to do so great in colllege this year to prove myself that even through all the shitty things that happened the past year, I would pass and graduate this time. I still can, but I need something to change because I havent managed to get myself up out of the house for class in about two weeks. I feel like such a failure. My place looks like sa dumpster, I haven’t done anything of any use in weeks, and I’ve just been letting everyone down. I either binge eat or don’t eat at all. I feel mentally ill and it has translated into my body. How does one get their life back in order when they feel like they lost their only reason to wake up in the morning?
but it really is so important to find people who don’t lose patience with you or get angry if you’re being irrational or insecure or downright ridiculous, it is so so necessary to be treated with gentleness from loved ones and not to be made to feel like you’re irritating or a burden
the main thing i look forward to in life is raising dogs w/ someone i love